Temporary is an understatement!

So....lets see here I am @ blame the most. Why get so caught up in someone?!? You know how you may think they maybe the one for right now....those guys don't even turn out to be for right then....they are just there for that millisecond! SERIOUSLY. It frustrates me because your so contradicting and that pisses me off beyond reason. How in the hell are you gonna be jealous but yet you are hardly even interested. Your attention span is the same as a toddler's. . . . frustrating in so many ways you seem to be. You want it then you don't. . . I'm TRULY over your games b/c that is exactly what they are....whether you realize it or not. It's not fair to me.... and I apologize for even letting it get this far....How silly of me to even entertain the fact. Your a baby. I'm so in the wrong but maybe I thought there was some slight chance, some glimpse of hope that maybe ...naw lets not even go there b/c tonight I have reacquainted myself with reality of the situation.

Funny thing about this entire thing is I actually started to question myself....which is something I should never do. God made me EXACTLY as I am and there is no mistake ! I can't believe I almost got that far . . . God made me and he made someone for me. I can't wait to see who it is... I'm actually excited. The next couple of milestones in my life are tests . . . and I'm gonna pass with FLYING COLORS! South Carolina State ain't ready for me.... but I'm ready for it.

It's been a LONG TIME!

So I've definitely missed blogging about my life and what troubles me and my frustrations that happen in my life so I'm back! Well anyways this year has been a trip in a half. I haven't been in school....so you know everyone is giving me mouth about it and it's starting to really bug me out. Like I know I'm not in school but @ least I'm doing something with my life . . . I work full time as a teachers assistant and I ABSOLUTELY love it. I have my days when I'm like....UGH! But I mean who doesn't?!? It's all about me growing and learning to be a mature adult. I have bills to pay now and I also pay rent....120.00 a month! Man....that's some inexpensive rent ! Besides the rent I take care of my car, food, and what I need. So I'm pretty much on my own but I need to work on getting my own place then I'll be in there like swimwear! =) Well that's all for now....I'll be sure to blogg more often. And also follow me on twitter @ www.twitter.com/BerMarie!